shitpost Resignation to contributed efforts

[Sunburst Flare]

hey all. wanted to make a quick note on some feelings that with certainty, I'm completely alone in having these thoughts and such

I want to put a quick disclaimer here, if you'd humor me for a second. I don't want this message to affect how people may view me, and I'd respect if we can keep all that the same. good or bad. my goal here is also not some "cry for help" or "for attention" reasoning, but just to clear some things up about myself. please feel free to laugh, clown, call me a retard, it's the same thing as breathing here on NHS. I do it myself which is why I thought I was good for this place. however, despite this, this leads me into the real context of this post.

first off, thank you all for the good times and laughs. however, I don't think nhs is the environment I want to support, donate, or contribute to. it's my belief any efforts I thought were mattering, clearly weren't, over the span of years, dating back to sept 2018. I had even planned on making a video showcasing what NHS has to offer, or something funny, etc. likely it'll go unnoticed, shrugged off? there are a plethora of reasons I won't get into. now it might seem this is a direct contradiction of what I said under the disclaimer. attention is clearly what I seek, right? i'm sorry but that just isn't true, my only reason for doing any of this is to feel welcomed or like I'm not a waste of time, like the things I did really did contribute to my once favorite community. but don't worry he's just saying this cause he just wants mod lol

did anybody say that? no, not at all. anyone would think the same though, if they were in the same place as I.

as a matter of fact, despite what I say, kwas, any moderator or admin, will likely find a way to turn this back on myself, clown on this entire post. that's exactly it. I'm not interested in offering my skills to this community, or even presence, due to the nature of the unwelcoming staff. not once did anyone bother trying to make an effort to get to know myself. regardless of the reason (ie cause I'm only now returning or whatever as of weeks ago)

to finish, my intent is to inform, not slander any staff or players in the community. not much will change, I just won't be on the discord (or main hub all that much) I'll just go join the portuguese on the other servers, etc. I'm positive any other place or community would be ecstatic to have my charm as an individual and skills, and I'd more than likely at the least feel welcomed.

so yes, haha go cry baby u just mad cause u never get mod, "it's just kwas get over it", "who cares I don't even know you", "lol he has an educated opinion look at this reddit fucking retard" --- it's not up to me however you'd like to clown on this one, guys. go mad, and cheers

this doesn't apply to everyone, so please do not assume the worst. staff or not; color, boob/semen, kylo, dovah, nessie... nessie. you're a real friend, thank you.
it would be nice to have this post remain rather than be deleted, and I don't feel this deserves a ban. thank you for reading and I'm sorry if I didn't explain anything properly despite the length of this.

-s

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Thank you for the response Kwas, but it must have been an error in the system since I know for a fact I was on before the first, maybe it was due to the fact that I only played on the alternative servers. That is wrong.

I also joked about my application, I think twice at the most over the span of a nice few days. It's unjust to declare this as "repeatedly" as the definition states there is a constant.

Lastly, yes, that is the best and only reason that it would be in everyone's best interest to not have me a part of this community, let alone staff.

This message is in response to the moderator application, and I ask that your response be adjusted, or outright remove my application all together. Thank you if you could do this one thing for me at the very least.

 

[the_REAL(yesREAL]

 

[Sunburst Flare]

like I said I do apologize, I never wanted to hurt anyone. it's just better for all is what I mean in the long run.

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I can also say with certainty, the "vast majority of reasons" Kwas has for denying the application are grossly hyperbolic, and should not be taken verbatim. There are no other valid reasons other than due to the fact I said the community isn't a welcoming environment, which I completely agree with as being a valid reason for denying. This is because, despite wasting years of my life on applying, it really would not have been worth it in the long run. There's no way to prove my side of the story since it's hearsay, but I've said this in the application itself-- about how I have been around before May the first. Please refer to the join date on the forums as a temporary example.

Secondly, yes I've joked about my application twice while playing on the main hub. "Repeatedly" does not fit the definition of joking twice over the course of a few days. I have actual proof of this one, in a Discord conversation with Kwas back when I FIRST applied, and also did not pester the staff team. This is proof that I asked and was told and didn't forget.

Lastly, you are correct in the final bullet point. The reason I made the post was to ask for a denial.

cheers!

 

[Kwas]

Your application has been denied for the time being. The multiple factors as to why have been clearly stated, and I would suggest against posting further about it.

Thanks! Have a nice night.